This year has been an interesting one so far. Lots of things urging me to discover, or be a part of them. Why is it that I find myself always searching for either things that don't make sense, or new ways to let myself go completely? And then one day it all made sense. Right now I am just living this wild story of mine. And it's the scariest thing I have ever done!
When you are always bracing for the next tough moment to rock your life….you find yourself in a space that feels always like transition. So when you finally reach a place where tough things only happen the form of dirty laundry and busy days, the feeling of “settled” and “safe” feel daunting and scary. How do you accept that everything is great? Everything is okay? Backwards….but true. Not every day is a battle, not every day is survival. Some days….it is. Some months….it is. Some years….it feels like life is trying to kill you. But then the lull and happiness comes back around and shakes our shoulders to say, “It’s all okay! You are alive and the air is still clear! ENJOY IT!”…..and I stand, shaking, because I don’t know how to be still and not in transition. But I am learning.
Yet I am still trying to pull myself constantly back into that transition phase. And that's how I have realized Trent and I both live. That's why we buy houses, we take risks... because we both are not sure of how to deal with feeling "settled". Maybe.. one day when we get older and finally feel like taking a breath. But right now.. we just seem to keep on running.
Yet I am still trying to pull myself constantly back into that transition phase. And that's how I have realized Trent and I both live. That's why we buy houses, we take risks... because we both are not sure of how to deal with feeling "settled". Maybe.. one day when we get older and finally feel like taking a breath. But right now.. we just seem to keep on running.
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Blue eyed babies. Aren't they cute!!? We got to spend some great time with Jenni, David and their sweet 3 little ones. They all had so much fun playing together. Love how times flies when you're having fun.
Can never go wrong with wheels and hula hoops. Hope you're having fun out there!!
You're amazing and I love you. I completely understand about waiting for the next thing to rock your life. Shane and I got a little too comfortable in 2006 and that's when my parents got divorced and his whole family left the Church. We've learned not to let our guards down again. :)
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